When God Moves

Sometimes God moves when we least expect it. I can't speak for the rest of the ladies in the study, but last week left me speechless. Let me catch you up if you missed it or want to relive it. From a leader's perspective (and let me tell you, I cringe at that word because I am just as much in need of this study as anyone else), God showed up in big ways. My day was emotionally draining and I gathered that it was so for many of us. I arrived to the study a) late b) frazzled and c) grumpy. I honestly wanted to just make it through. My prayer over and over that day was, "God do the leading. I have nothing to give to these girls. Why did you give me this responsibility when I come with nothing." I think that was right where He wanted me.  We chatted over dessert and then dove into the video. The video was engaging and I could see the girls processing what the next six weeks were going to be like. I think there is going to be some heavy duty soul work. But isn't that great that we are going to be even closer to working through those fleshly issues to the woman that God created? (I can just hear a collective sigh from the ladies).

I know I felt like uh oh God, here we go. Some girls left early but then oh man, I looked to the leader questions and dove in. Melanie pointed out to me later that I said, "Let's do these questions for kicks and giggles and then we can wrap it up." That was me in leader-autopilot but God had much much bigger plans. The first question was like Pandora's box. We went around and casually answered until God moved. Honesty emerged and the beauty of the comfort and safety of women happened.

Lexi, my dear sweet Lexi, shared her heart. I tear up at the thought of the way she was honest with the group. Through her raw emotion a snowball built up. The concern and interest of others continues. Beth jumped in and got to the bottom of it and as we began to further understand the hurt she was going through, then the miraculous happened. We could all feel the heaviness in the room, the weight of our dear sister's burden but something else was there too. God knocked. Melanie answered and we all felt. Gwenna and I were in tears. Melanie shed a tear as the passion of her God breathed words rang through the emotion of the night. Her words pierced my heart. The real-ness of what she said hit so close to home I found myself on the edge of my seat praying that it would be delivered. That a seed would be planted in each of our hearts as we remember to live for Him, even when that means it hurts more.

The heaviness of the burden was lifted by sweet Jesus. We gathered around Lexi and prayed, cried and laughed. We recounted the miracle that happened. Passion continued and I shared my heart. I wasn't in a good place that night. I had been fighting a war in my heart over an ex-boyfriend who had contacted me.

You know that feeling where you love something and can't have it? Like a cake set in front of you and then your told to watch it but not touch it. That was where I was at. Yes, I love my ex. But I know he is not the right guy for me. He and I together are like a toxic concoction. We fuel each other's sin nature. We are negative and fleshly when put together. It's down right ugly sister. Anyways he contacted me after months of not talking, (his number had been blocked until the blockage expired) and he had apparently been trying to contact me for a while. My heart was torn to bits. I wish I was stronger and could say that I did not talk to him that night. But no, I did. Things were said and it lead to a spiritual battle within me. It was great to let it out to my girls and have encouragement. It was like finally releasing a shook up coke bottle and letting lose my emotions. I do not do what I want to do and hate what I do was how this girl was feeling.

The night ended with extra dessert, chicken noodle soup for Lexi and more prayer for her. There is something spiritual about the war she is waging. It's what happens when a God's girl gets caught up in something that isn't from Him. Of course the enemy wants to see failure, but we are going to stand in Him. In my heart I know that things are happening in the realm of the unseen. Battles are being won. Can I just say "He is victorious. Jesus is King." He will reign forever and ever. I know that these battles we are waging in our hearts are not the end, but can we not stand as the victorious ones that we are ladies???

This is going to be a powerful study. I can't wait to see what was uncovered. If you missed the video/ can't see it cause some of us are in another country (wink, wink- Love you Joanie girl) Here are the fill in the blanks:

Intro Session Listening Guide
We are capable of making it well with our souls based on what we choose to tell ourselves.

We have the potential of saying things to ourselves that we would never say to anyone else.

Your thought closet was designed to host eternal matters.

The words of your mouth include the ones that you speak to your own soul.


The standard for our self-talk is what is acceptable to God.

God is the source and strength for your self-talk.

Every wrong word and every lie that is spoken can be redeemed by God.

Happy Homework!!! Hope God is working in each of your lives!!! Praying for you all!!!

For fun- Next week we are supposed to bring the oldest pair of shoes in our closet ;) We can upload pictures of them on here. I want to see what they look like (I may or may not have a shoe fetish).